A walk since a long time...

Today i was supposed to meet a friend for his birthday dinner but last min he had a family dinner. Somethings happen yesterday and today made me think very hard. I always wanted something so simple but yet it has become so difficult to understand. Today was a thunderous and rainy day. I walk from Somersert all the way home. I wanted to walk through the rain and hear the raindrops on my umbrella... I wanted to hear the rain as my thought raced through my mind. It was a long walk but when I got home. I did not feel tired. I was very calm throughout the walk. Everyone was running and hurrying to get out of the rain but i was no hurry. I almost wanted to walk as slow as i can untill i got my thought sorted out But the rain was not going to wait for me. It stopped when i was almost home. My thoughts was still as messed up but i manage to make a decision but i am not sure if i can follow through.