Days of A Yuki Joou: The O.C III

I was watching the O.C (Season 3) on Channel 5 last night...It was showing the part where Ryan has found new love and is very much in love with the new girl and ready to move on and leaving Marissa behind. (You can get a glimpse of them in the first picture below) When the new girl decide to leave for home, Ryan was too late to stop her and Marissa went all out to help Ryan to stop her from leaving.. When she asked Marissa why is doing all this for Ryan... Marissa's reply took a stab and open a old wound..She said "Because you make Ryan happy and i want him to be happy"... It made me think of a certain someone...I cried again, which i wish i will stop shedding tear for him again but i wish him happiness...No matter what happened between us.. he is still a man i loved deeply and i wish he is happy which i think he is right now...

In the other hand, Marissa goes off the Golden brick road...She gets hooked up with a "sleazy" surfer bad boy... She continues to live in her trailer and parties like crazy and drinks like no tomorrow... She start missing classes, family gathering and moves away from her best friend, Summer...Ryan tried to help but he is too involved in his new love to show enough concern for her..She is like going through a "Before her death of Princess Diana" phase when Prince Charles was with her current wifey, she start dating and partying... They did not know how to cope with the stress and sadness they are experiencing.. so they start to drink, party their lives away.. and not forgetting choosing all the wrong guys... There was this shot with Marissa talking with the surfer boy, he was trying to show concern towards her life.. he said that she deserve to be treated right...Marissa's answer was "If I wanted to be treated right, i would not have pick you." So it was like she knows it is wrong but she doing it anywhere...She is like punishing herself or try to get away from everything..The show ends with her taking her first sniff of cocaine.. Just look at Diana, she is dead while Prince Charles is now happily married AGAIN... Its a imbalance of fate... What about Diana? Don't she deserve happiness as much as Prince Charles? I am all emotional again... maybe because i can relate to the lost feeling too well and it does not seem to want to go away... Luckily for me, i still can compose myself from going too far away ( I would thank God for that, My faith in God is too deeply rooted to just leave God behind) Although i may be a party queen now, i am not on my way to destruction, just that my life is getting complicated by the day... Someday i know i will overcome this twisted fate.. but by when i cant say for sure.. I will find happiness someday or one day...