My past weekend..

The past week that has past which I met up or chat with a few good friends... Some disppointed me, Some i had managed to have a good chat with them. After my sunday service, i was out having lunch with my mother...While we were chatting, my mummy said something about me that went straight to my heart and brought tears to my eyes. She said "The reason you are not feeling so joyful coz you keep too much sorrow in your heart. Being in Love is the best way to be joyful so try to be in love with God. Maybe you will happier." A very close friend of mine will be move out of Singapore for a short while actually 2 friends are leaving Singapore for work. One will be leaving for 2 years and my close close girlfriend will be leaving for at least 6 months... She will be going to Shanghai for her new career. I am very glad for her as it is a great chance for her. I wish i have a chance too... Actually that was what i told her that I wish i could get a chance to leave Singapore for a short period of time to work and stay on my own. She was surprised by my intention coz all my friends and family are here. I told her that the reason i want to leave Singapore is becoz without leaving this place and being alone on my own and away from my past, i feel that i cant have a new start for my life. Maybe its also becoz i dont know what i cant leave behind or live without anymore coz I think no one here have the feeling of "cant live without me in their life" if i were ever to leave here. I also have got to chat with a good friend that i have not seen a while. He ask me why i always sound so unhappy and that i always think so much until i make myself suffer. He even came upwith this "bug and windshield" theory - "Just like twist of fate, sometimes you've to be the windshield, sometimes you've to be the bug...You can't always be the bug." But i don't understand any part of his theory at all.. so if any of you who happen to read this and understand, do drop me a comment to explain to me...